worries and happiness.

it has been awhile, hello again.
time flies, january ended and one month has passed.

had a great christmas break, spent it wisely.
and of course, five weeks later, on the night before school starts, we all worry.
i mean, i did.

 

yesterday, was the day that i started dancing again, after six years. contemporary jazz was my love.

i loved dancing, perhaps a little part of me still does, every once in awhile – dancing by myself to some mainstream pop music.

enthusiasm was definitely within me when i first heard i get to dance again, but it would be sexy street hip hop. “give it a try”, i told myself. a fish out of water, that was how i felt while dancing hip hop, especially the being sexy part. many times i thought of quitting.

the exit sign was so tempting.

i’m insecure, don’t know what for.
fear, perhaps.

fear of looking like an odd ball from everyone else.
fear of dancing in front of everyone.
just a whole bunch of fears and worries – which i should really learn to let go.

a fortune teller once told me that i worry too much, at such a young age, i guess she was right. time to let go and just live life like there’s no tomorrow - cliche, but so true.

 

off to a happier subject, i got my grades for my first semester and i am satisfied.
second upper class and first class honours marks, not bad i guess.

treated myself an awesome piece of chocolate fudge cake from a local tea shop, as a reward; truly satisfying.

speaking of feeling great, it definitely feels great meeting new people, from different places, even though we’re from the same country. a good dinner, (of conversations and laughters) was all it took, to be friends with new people.

january has been well, and the year 2013 is looking promising so far.
here’s to february being as good or even better than january *cheers*

 

oh charlie, cheer up and don’t ever give up. think happy thoughts

new year’s resolutions

it’s that time again, to write resolutions.
so here we go, here we go!

to have good relationships with
family
friends
boyfriend

to study hard so i can
get good grades
graduate with first class honours (next year)
proof to everyone, including myself that i am good at what i do

to travel to
barcelona
paris
new york
ireland

to bake
meringue
macarons
bread and butter pudding

to be
a good daughter
a patient person
a hardworking gym buddy
a friend that my friends can count on
a good student who excels
an awesome girlfriend

to not
worry to much
cry like a baby
spend like a shopaholic
have hatred
lie to my loved ones

to attend concerts
coldplay
mcfly

to always remember to
skype with my family every now and then
google+ hangout with my friends more often
stay connect with friends from primary and high school, and university
thank my teachers for the person i am today

to cherish every moment with
my family, even though they are far from me
my friends in the united kingdom, as they are like my second family

to take good care of
myself
my family
my friends

to live life like there’s no tomorrow

 

oh charlie, forget about the bad past, and cherish the good memories. it’s a new year, enjoy every minute of it!

afternoon train.

hello.

it’s the last day of 2012, and i’m currently on a train back to newcastle, from london. here i am, sat next to my best friend and opposite me are my good friends, who are one of the cutest couple i ever seen.

i had a great time in london, did  a little shopping and a lot of eating. i also got to reunited with my primary and high school friends, who are awesome as they brought me around london, for fun, food and festivals.

the year 2012 has its ups and downs, but mostly ups. i am proud to say i have achieved most of my resolutions this year.

a great year it was,

blessed with much love by family and friends,
reunited with old friends,
graduated from diploma with GPA 3.96,
met awesome people, experienced snow,
travelled out and about with loved ones,
ate good food,
got a scholarship,
experienced independence

and last but not least, blessed by God.

from the bottom of my heart, i would to say thank you, to everyone who made my year a memorable one, i love you, and i wish you a happy new year, may the new year bring you new luck. now let’s start writing some new year’s resolution.

 

oh charlie, 2013 would be a great year, let’s live while we’re young!

merry natalie.

good morning and merry christmas!

this is my first christmas away from my family, and i miss them dearly.
however, i am blessed with good company here, my friends who have been through thick and thin with me for more than 3 months now; they are like my second family.

so what does one do on christmas day?
the usual tradition would be exchanging gifts with family and friends, and visiting friends who celebrate christmas.

what about today?
at this very moment, i am drinking pipping hot cup of hot cocoa with mini marshmallows, along with some ginger nuts and jammie dodgers.

oh, that’s my christmas morning. 

 

after that, some good old laugh with classic christmas movies, home alone series.

oh that classic line.

 

so far christmas day seems to be good. i mean, i have yet to go out and about, but i have everything and everyone i need here, for this christmas.

good food.
good movie.
good company.
good internet connection.

so here’s to wishing everyone a merry christmas and a happy new year!

 

oh charlie, it’s christmas, make a wish.

remember me

ain’t no sunshine.

so, it’s the 21st of december, year 2012.
i’m still here, typing this post. not end of the world after all, i suppose?

just the frequent rain drops here in newcastle, and no sunshine.

however, if the world is ending anytime soon, i have a list of things to do before i die. just to name a few …

1. to dye my hair

perhaps dip dye?

or even try the ombre?

just most certainly not like ramona flowers, the girl with super striking blue/pink/green/purple hair from scott pilgrim vs. the world.

 

2. to have a tattoo

perhaps of tiny birds on my back or a colourful peace sign made from flowers.

it may seem like i’m going all rebellious, but i’ve always admire people with tattoos; the pain they endure to have a work of art on them permanently.

 

3. to go to an island

stand near the cliff and scream like there’s no tomorrow

 

4. and then jump off the cliff

not to commit suicide, but to experience adrenaline rush and face my fears

 

5. to cook a wholesome feast for my family

we would be surrounded with good food, love and lots of laughters. that would be the perfect memory, if the world does come to an end soon.

 

6. to capture memories and moments

of me, my family, my friends or even strangers.

 

7. to volunteer to help those in need

how can you not help and say no to these adorable faces? i would like to travel around the world some day to help children in need.

and also volunteer in animal shelters, because i have a soft spot for animals, especially little ones.

 

8. to travel around the world

perhaps take up the challenge like phileas fogg did in around the world in 80 days.

but i would like travel in this car, with my suitcases tied on my car and hopes in my heart.

 

9. to find the love of my life

whoever he may be, i hope to find him before the world ends; because nobody wants to die alone.

 

10. and last but not least, just live life like there’s no tomorrow; because even with all the theories, we can never predict when will be our last day.

 

oh charlie, wake up and open your eyes, to see the beautiful world and people.

london calling.

hello again.
after 3 months of studying, it’s finally winter break; five weeks of break.

oh a roller coaster ride it was, up and down, seems like it’s never ending.
but it finally did, i am glad to get off the roller coaster ride.

for the first time in my life, i experienced a sleepless night; awake for 26 hours.
madness indeed.

i’m glad that part of my life is over. now, let’s focus on the present and future.

next week, i’ll be off to london for a well-deserved holiday with 3 of my very good friends. at the same time, i’ll have the chance to reunite with my high school friends.

oh i look forward to visit the many iconic places such as the big ben tower, london bridge and westminster abbey.

 

to ride a big red bus would be awesome.

 

i want a picture with a red telephone booth, with a smile on my face that express my happiness and excitement.

and if it snows, it would be just perfect.

i’ve got a ticket for the long way ’round
two bottles of whiskey for the way
and i sure would like some sweet company
and i’m leaving what’dya say?

oh london, i can’t wait to have you in my memories.

 

oh charlie, london is calling, calling your name.